human nature

Improving one's self is human nature, from evolution of their species to moving to better homes and staying in a better enviroment.We do so to, from trying to get the best seats in the cinema,not too front nor not too back,and students trying to outwit each other to get the best results to the best of their ability.i either see people improving themselves or maintaining their results at their very best...but i just cant...i cant seem to improve myself character-wise or academically wise....19 points for common test, i thought maybe i was just not used to sec 3 life bahx...midyears so far none of my results show me that i have tried my very best to improve myself....

e maths overall: B3
physics overall:B3
geog paper 1: 32/40
english paper 19/30
chinese paper 2:79.5/110

Although some people can see i that i had put in extra effort in preparing for this exam bahx...but my results does not tally with it....my parents are using rewards to make me do better but i tried but i failed.really dont know what to do now....asking myself to buck up for CA3? or just tell myself i am just born stupid...i dont know.....

i open my eyes, i tried to see but i am blind....