=D

i am feeling ultra super duper happy now! cannot believe how happy i am.

first! my grades improved! yay!
chem :33/50 =) (F9 -> B3)
maths: 38/40 (easy paper la)

but i am still happy cos my grades improved! not trying to be smug here but yah, i improved!

secondly! there will be one more performance of us again! june i think yay! i wont waste my time again in dance =)

thirdly! crash revision on weekends ! i feel clever! =D

lastly! my tuition teachers says i shld be a teacher or a social worker! haha what subjects should i teach? maybe geography? haha oops!

total time spent on tuition for the weekends--- 10 and half hours......nice try. hurhur

phew...its finally over! =)

i am feeling very accomplished now....because the dance is finally done and we have presented it in front of all of you! yay! but we still dont think it was very nice because there was still a lot of mistakes, slow movements, wrong movements. so it was still sad for us as we think we are not that good and we did not uphold the 'wow" factor whenever dance came to stage.... =( but never mind there is still time for practice and there will still be quite a lot of perfromances. i really hope that we will do a perfect job once! =) hoped your enjoyed the perfromance as the audience.

okay enough of that.... after that we went out with band people to 'celebrate' to jec. lagged there for don't know how long. after that we decided to home due to jiahui's complains of a heel pain. okay so while we were walking to the bus stop, we were approached by a blind man. (lets call him A)

A asked:" hello? excuse me ? anyone there? " ( i think he discovered our prescence due to our loud laughter)

and we being the nice bunch of people decided to help him...

A:" is there a funfair around here?"
we:" yeah right there" ( and we pointed in the direction)
A:" okay, can you bring me there?" ( after saying that he hooked his hand to desmond- like how a couple will hook their hands together)

okay so desmond being the very good guy around here ( or maybe he didnt have a choice) he brought him to the fair which has not opened yet ( it has just finished raining)
so we waited there for quite a long time with him asking irrelevant questions and maybe dumb though ( i am not trying to be really bad here, sorry!) here are some of the questions he asked.

"is this the place for the sale of tickets?" x infinity
"is there a ride called _____?" x infinity
"why is the fair not opened yet?" x infinity

okay....so after a very long and tedious wait, the fairlady ( the one who oversees the fair) did not allow him to get on the ride as he was disabled.....

he did not budge off after the old incident he wanted us to bring him (again!) to buy a drink and an icecream and even wanted us to bring him to view some of the cds that the market was selling. i was getting so pissed that i kept saying" i think he is really testing our patience" and yada yada..... just kept complaining.

so after spending a long time on him.... HE WANTED TO GO TO POPULAR!! okay that was really on my nerves and maybe not only me but everyone else. so anthony brought him to the entrance of popular and said:" okay i need to go, byeybye!" and he ran away.

FINALLY THE TORTUROUS WAIT WAS OVER!

AND I FELT REALLY BAD =( we left a blind man on his own....

and we finally can go home! yay! after like 1 hours plus later....

so gwen and i came up with something----- unkarma, unkarma ... (your name). with actions included. XD

yup so that was how i spent my day.... i felt really bad but it was really too much.


am i wrong to do that? i dont think i am....

.....

i will be dancing at the international friendship day concert... it was a super rush dance with the performance on wednesday ( 28/3). i was told to dance in the item as wah chun and boyuan could not dance. i feel like i am pulling the item down as you know my basics and flexibility are not that good. i hope the audience will not be disappointed because i know i am very lousy, so please bear with it on wednesday.


WEDNESDAY 12.45 PM SCHOOL HALL---> WORLD WITHOUT STRANGERS!! =)


I HOPE I CAN DO IT =D

woah!

cheorographing a dance is very ultra super duper difficult! danced the whole day today... super tired. =(

=D

don't know why, a sudden surge of happiness is forming inside me. is it the holidays? is it because of mrs look's inspiring quotes? i dont know. but i feel happy. study groups with the dancers is productive! (not all times) haha but i like it !

i love my tuition teacher! they way she speaks, the way she teaches. EVERYTHING! WOOHOO and she is darn pro la ! shant say much :X

tmr is chem remedial and i feel excited. the only thing is i LOST MY NOTES! what the hell cant find them anywhere !

my teacher says i can get A1 for both sciences, making me feel ALOT better. but is it true ? i will never know until the time comes. attitude!

trying to finish as much homework as fast as possible and start on revision!

i skate for no one but myself. =D

whheees! i am so happy =D

I feel happy.

confidence level is slowly rising and i feel i am improving.

i am seriously productive, especially with 6 hours of continuous tuition for today. =D

as what mrs look had said, " confidence comes from within" i couldn't confirm, but the idea was somewhat simliar.

i am trying, trying my best to feel good about myself and be confident too. i think is working... oh man i am so happy these days, and this is only the second day of the march holidays.

homework done:

geog assignment
A maths ws
20 A maths ten-year-series questions (with the help of jiahui, desmond and elaine picking the lucky questions)
yay!

the sad thing is that i cannot enjoy the kickboxing lessons every monday. =(

overall i feel happy !

Nothing much to say about me, still not feeling very well now and mrs lee wants to call my parents. oh well.

confidence level-> dropped

that's all i can say, well at least now i know i have a bunch of really nice classmates! :D
and friends too!


just having speed to the finish line isn't everything, you will still slip and fall. having speed and control is what we need, so we know that where are we actually going and aiming for. just like a bobsleigh... hai.... i wont fall again... =)

my reflections...

OLYMPICS:

Okay using figure skating as an example, i shall reflect on myself.

Competitors handpicked in their country to represent their country to do their country proud. The effort they put in... we can't see.

Successful jumps, twirls makes the competition seemed like a performance. A beautiful piece of moving art, lasting for only four minutes. But they are just normal people, who may be has better talent, better luck. Determination, effort, work.

The ability to continue skating, after each fall, each disappointment, each failure. Skaters, i can dare say, are the world most respectable people. Falling right in front of a whole panel of judges, in front of their people, in front of the world. But they are able to stand up and continue with the rest of their peformance, as if nothing has happened before. Am i able to do it ?

I have put in effort, i really did. I tried my very best in all the papers, each with a glimmer of confidence. But effort doesn't mean results. You reap what you sow. I sowed high quality seeds, but get back rotten fruits. What is this world coming to ? Is it my fault? Did I put ENOUGH effort? No!

I am demoralised. I thought a brand new year, a brand new start. This period meant so much to me. I wasn't able to concentrate, not determined enough. But is this going to pull me down, or a slap to wake me up from my dreams? I never know. I try and try but to no avail.

Am I going to be a skater? I never know.